I just recently celebrated my birthday, the big twenty-seven, and I can’t hardly believe it! First of all, where did all the time go? I feel like I just turned twenty-six yesterday. I wanted to do a little recap of how twenty-six treated me, and then look forward to this exciting new year! Honestly last year was the hardest year of my entire life. I went through so many life changing things. Even though it was the most difficult year, I feel like I really discovered who I am as a person, and who I was meant to be.
It is honestly hard to even look back on this year. I went through so many things that I really didn’t see coming. Now that I am in the place I am now, I can see why this year was so important for me, and why it was so very needed at this point in my life. I feel like twenty-six was my wakeup call. Twenty-six showed me sides of myself I never even knew were there. It forced me to be stronger than I even knew possible. Which today makes me feel like I am a pretty bad, B!
The main reason last year was so hard for me was because I lost two very important people in my life just before my birthday. I lost my grandmother, and I went through a breakup that really changed me. I feel like I lost myself in my relationship, so I had to rediscover who I was. I decided that since I was going on this self-love journey, I might as well do it right. I didn’t just try to heal myself from my breakup, I wanted to really heal myself as a person. I wanted to finally deal with all the things I had been through in my life that was affecting me still.
It took me about six months to do this. Six long and intense months! It wasn’t easy at all. I feel like I was facing all the sides of myself that I never could before. I have been through a lot of relationships that really took a toll on me. Now, I can finally say that they are in my past. They don’t affect me anymore. I rediscovered who I was, and let go of all the insecurities I was still carrying with me. It was a crazy, but beautiful transition.
After spending so much time focusing on myself, I feel like I am finally in-tune with who I was meant to be. I have never been so focused, and so clear on what I want in my life. Career wise I am focusing on doing something that I truly love. Which I am so excited to share with you all soon! I also find myself attracted to completely different people than I was before. I realized I just can’t keep dating the same kind of guys. I know exactly what I want, so I need a man who is on the same page as I am. Hopefully I find him soon! If not, it’s okay because for the first time in my life I am completely focused on me. I honestly have never been so happy!
It is crazy that the hardest year of my life that caused me so much pain, has now led to me being the happiest I have ever been. That’s why I knew I needed to go through what I went through. It forced me to find myself. To find who I am meant to be. I am so excited for the new things I have coming up, and to finally be doing things I truly love! Cheers to twenty-seven!